Things are different now
There was a time, not so long ago, that the events of the last several weeks would have sent me into a spiral of self- destructive eating. Every joy, and especially sorrow, would be celebrated or mourned with food. My food choices in general at that time weren’t supportive of my physical health, but any hurt, real or imagined, was an excuse to medicate with food until I was numb, which naturally made me feel even worse when I emerged from my food-drunk state. The beautiful irony of not using food as medication anymore, is that I genuinely enjoy it now, and can eat literally anything without guilt, although not necessarily without physical pain, but that’s another story for another blog post. Suffice to say, it is both joy and freedom to naturally crave the foods that support my wellness and goals most of the time, and be able to completely experience and savor the indulgences when I choose to have them.